Friday, December 3, 2010

"30 Day Challenge... Day 10"

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

I need to let go of the person I used to be.

 This is the first time in over 2 years I have been single for any measurable amount of time. I always had a man boy in my life. Always. I am a confident, busy, single mommy. I am proud of that. I do not need a man. Sure it would be nice but I can't always be on the prowl, like I used to be. 

I am a mommy now, my body is different now. I can't drop 5lbs like I used to be able to, so I have to be careful when I do put on weight & weight goes to different places than before. I can not fit in to super low cut jeans anymore. When I go out I can't (and dont want to) drink as much as I used to. Sure I can stay up late but 630 comes early after a long night and my toddler doesn't care what I did the night before; She's hungry & thirsty. 

I have to stop trying to be who I was the last time I was single. Because last time I was single I was also CHILDLESS. I have to let go of the old Kelli and embrace this one. 

I may go a long time w.out a man or w.out going out but Im fine and dandy with that, I have my girl. This is who I am & there's no changing that.

/SN:I hope this made sense... b/c it did in my head!endSN/


**Who is someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know?

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xo
-Kandid Kelli

1 comment:

Katie said...

I need to let go of me, too, or at least let go of the person I thought I would be by now. I need to let go of my ideal perception of how I should be and realize that it's just not in the cards for me.

Sometimes, I think it's easier to let go of other people than of ourselves.