Thursday, July 8, 2010

"Limbo"

I hate feeling like I am in a state of limbo.

I thought coming home (back to FL) would make things instantly, 100% better. At first it did. Then the feeling of limbo set in.

I am wanting to move out of my parents house. I lived here, unplanned, for almost 2 yrs.  I miss having my own space. I would love more then anything to be able to raise my daughter w.out the constant input from grandparents or if I say "No" E runs to nana or papa in hopes of a "Yes". I love my parents for all they have done but I am 24y/o, with a child. The time has come.

We are looking, for a place to call home, its not as easy as I had thought it was going to be. But that comes with antything in life that is "worth it".

It's not just the living situation that has me feeling this way, other aspects of my life have me feeling like this. I am trying to take it day-by-day, week-by-week- but I am a planner by nature & it's killing me, becoming impossible.

I wish I could be more specific but I feel as if, right now, I can't.

I hope this feeling passes soon-


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-Kandid Kelli

5 comments:

Katie said...

I'm also a planner, so I know how much being in limbo sucks. Hang in there, girl. I hope things start turning around soon.

Angela said...

Hopefully you'll be able to find a place of your own.
I realize this isn't quite the same, but whenever I'm at work (and the parents are at home) and one of the kids ask me for/to do something and I say no, they'll run to their Dad to get a yes out of him. It's so extremely frustrating, especially if he's not on my side with whatever it is the kids want. Hopefully your parents are at least putting up a united front in that respect.

Angela said...

Hopefully you'll be able to find a place of your own.
I realize this isn't quite the same, but whenever I'm at work (and the parents are at home) and one of the kids ask me for/to do something and I say no, they'll run to their Dad to get a yes out of him. It's so extremely frustrating, especially if he's not on my side with whatever it is the kids want. Hopefully your parents are at least putting up a united front in that respect.

Amanda♥Lynne said...

I know that feeling of limbo all too well. I think my biggest challenge is to make the most of my limbo. I think that each time I'm in a place of limbo, it's God's way of teaching me something-since I seem to land there so often. The only times I get out of that limbo place are when I just submit to Him and His will for me, instead of my own-which is a hard thing to do. Not saying to just sit back and do nothing about it, but to accept that when things are exactly, precisely what you were expecting or wanting at the exact, precise moment you were expecting them. I just have to remember that every place I am is where I'm meant to be, and to try my dangdest to make the most of it...if I can. It's so hard though, and that is why I know all too well the feeling.

Single Mom Seeking said...

I get this, too, and I lived with my Dad and my toddler... You put your vision out there, that's BIG.

I don't know all the details about your upcoming wedding (woo eee!), so I'm not sure if you and your fiance will move in together? (I'm still figuring out THAT one, too!). Maybe you'll go house hunting?

Love what you're doing and where you're going!