Monday, September 20, 2010

"Alot of Thought"

After a lot of thought. I decided to go public again.

Personally, I am not in a good place. I am feeling depressed, I have been missing church & crying a lot. I am lonely.

I don't want sympathy.

But this blog used to be my place to "fall" & now its not. I hate that I had to be censored. I am not naive. I know there are people out there that read this, that I sure as hell DON'T want reading it. But frankly there is NOTHING I can do about it.

I can name 3 or 4 that read it and I wish they wouldn't. But thats the chance I took when I started blogging over 2 years ago.

I need to use my blog to push through this "blue" time in my life. The last time I felt like this was right after I had E & I had PPD.

I not used to living alone yet. I don't like how quite it gets come 8:05 & E is in bed. From then till about 11:45-12 when I go to bed its so quiet. I need to get in some kind routine.

Thanks for listening [reading] this was kind of a stream-of-consciousness post.


*No judgement!


Keep up in between posts, I Tweet , A lot.

-Kandid Kelli


Leelers♥ said...

Hey darling!! I know how you feel, since I just moved into this new place It does get quite lonely at times.. Well at night... every night! You are more than welcome to text, or call anytime. I know how depressing it can be.

Anonymous said...

Yay! I'm happy to see you back. :)

Hayley said...

Yippee! Does this mean you'll show up in my Reader again? :)

Anonymous said...

Love you. I hope things get better soon.