Personally, I am not in a good place. I am feeling depressed, I have been missing church & crying a lot. I am lonely.
I don't want sympathy.
But this blog used to be my place to "fall" & now its not. I hate that I had to be censored. I am not naive. I know there are people out there that read this, that I sure as hell DON'T want reading it. But frankly there is NOTHING I can do about it.
I can name 3 or 4 that read it and I wish they wouldn't. But thats the chance I took when I started blogging over 2 years ago.
I need to use my blog to push through this "blue" time in my life. The last time I felt like this was right after I had E & I had PPD.
I not used to living alone yet. I don't like how quite it gets come 8:05 & E is in bed. From then till about 11:45-12 when I go to bed its so quiet. I need to get in some kind routine.
Thanks for listening [reading] this was kind of a stream-of-consciousness post.
So here goes NOTHING. I AM PUBLIC AGAIN.
Keep up in between posts, I Tweet , A lot.