"Ready"

Right now I am lucky enough to stay home with my pretty in the mornings on Thursday & Fridays. So I decided I have neglected my reader for long enough; I started perusing blogs as I sipped my coffee with a smile on my face.

I don't know exactly when it happened, but I realized I AM READY...

...to be happy; Not just sometimes but always.

...to stop over analyzing, everything.


...to leave the past where it belongs, in the past.


...to take the walls down, slowly & open up.


and I am ready...


...for March to come, my life is unfolding around me and I am stuck in this vortex. I can't get out but I see everything happening. 


Come Feb. 28 I will only have one job.
     I will go from working M-W 9-2 at job1 and M 215-545 T&F 215-530 W 115-530 and Th 215-600 at job2 to working M&W 9-330, T&Th 9-2 at job1.

I am excited for this change, the chance to continue making money and supporting my daughter and I, but also the opportunity to spend more time with my girl and to focus on school.

Instead of being so stressed out from the moment I leave work and walk in the door at night, trying to get dinner on the table, E in a bath and ready for bed all in the span of about 1.5 hrs. I will be able to get dinner on the table at a decent time while enjoying the time with my girl without constantly checking the clock.

I know I will MISS my kids like crazy. Not just my 4th graders but Heathers and her 3rd graders, Allison and her 2nd graders and Vickie and her1st graders and my Kindergarten "babies" (I dont like the K teacher and will NOT miss her)


The good thing is I am leaving on a positive note, I don't like burning bridges, so I WILL go visit when it fits my schedule.

I love ext day but E has been acting out, bad. I honestly believe it's b/c she doesn't see me enough and she wants attention, good or bad. I had to make the hard decision to leave the job that causes me to be home so late and away from her.

I know this decision will help make me happy, all the time.

The other things will come with time.

Things like that don't happen over night. I am starting to take the walls down, brick-by-brick. I have been really happy as of late, while I may analyze, everything, I am still smiling.

I also realized this morning, that I may be "replaceable" but NOONE is ME. I have so much love and happiness to offer too right person. I think I have found the right person to give that love and happiness too, but I am not sure he is ready... I am willing to walk slow, by his pace. Only time will tell.

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Keep up in between posts, I Tweet , A lot.

xo

-Kandid Kelli

  

"Beautiful Blogger"

Last THURSDAY, MAY 6, 2010, HaylsK J.Caylor both awarded me with the Beautiful Blogger award! Thanks girl(s)!



Rules: I'm supposed to share seven tidbits about myself, then pass it along to seven beautiful bloggers.

1. I am always cold
2. I love to read, but dont get to often
3. I enjoy cooking and LOVE baking -- I love getting E involved, get bonding time and life skills can be learned/ taught in the kitchen (I learned that from my Gran)
4. I hate hate hate spiders
5. I LOVE holidays- any reason to make a normal day extra special
6. I am a very emotional person
7. I would do anything (in my power) for my friends & esp. family

Beautiful Bloggers (I think 1 or 2 of you might have been chosen before! not sure):

Katie
Allyssa
Rachael
Amanda
Lelia
Whitney
Elizabeth
Jessica

Honorables (chosen before)

Erin

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Guess who woke up with a fever this AM? No not little E... Me! Whatever she had (besides the ear infection) the last couple of days... mama now has. Oh boy! I am just SOOOOO happy my doodles is feeling better! THANK GOD!

Don't miss a beat, keep up in between posts, I Tweet , a lot.

xo
-Kandid Kelli

"My Favorites"

Only b/c I was up all night w.a sick toddler... who has a drs apt at 10:15.



Animals Elephants

Beverage Diet Dr. Pepper, Diet Coke, Sweet Tea, COFFEE

Breakfast Moms banana pancakes

BubbleGum anything spearmint

Cars Audi Q7

Cologne Very Sexy for Him

Color Purple

Day Saturday & Sunday both family days

Dog Breed Um i like almost all dogs over 15lbs

Fast Food Restaurant Wendys

Food Mexican

Football Team College- UF (and now I guess OSU thx Jess) Pro- GB Packers

Fruit Raspberries

Month June

Music Genre Country

Number 7

Place Tropical (ie: Hawaii)

Restaurant Amigos

Ringtone I have a few

Season Summer

Sport To Watch Football/ Basketball

Perfumes Supermodel by VS

TV Shows I have a list

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Keep up in between posts, I Tweet , A lot.

xo
-Kandid Kelli

"A short meme"

{i need this mug! It might help reminf me to keep calm while Im drinking my daily coffee. Might lead to better days! I accept gifts. ha. jk. Sort of.}

Outside my window... is sunshine, a cool breeze & LOTS of green. I will miss the green/Mtns in FL.

Today I feel... Anxious, I teach tonight.

I am thinking... about my lesson, the move, my future.

At the moment, I am thankful... for my family, my daughter.

I am going... to be moving in a month, my future is a little uncertain right now.

I am wearing... sweats, still. I guess thats okay its only 9am. I still have my coffee in hand.

I wish... I could lose 4lbs & find my fiancée a job in FL. Pronto so things wouldn't be so uncertain.

I am reading... this - slower than I would like b/c im in the last 2wks of school and I have so much HW. But I like it, its good. I have to finish a book once I start it, so I'll let yall know once Im done, ask me in 2 weeks!

I am working on... trying to be positive. Its not working.

I am hoping... that a Ford job will materialize. ha.

I am hearing... a lot of negativity from ppl. It doesn't help

Around the house... I need to start packing.

I bet you didn't know... that he said if he doesn't move w/me or SHORTLY after me it will be a YEAR and that we will have to push the wedding a yr if I want it in June. I cried. See UNCERTAINTY.

One of my favorite... things to do is just veg out on a Friday PM with a good book or catch up on DVRed shows. Yah Im LAME & Old. how sad.

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Keep up in between posts, I Tweet , A lot.

xo
-Kandid Kelli