"The Teacher"

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So many of my readers are friends with me via FB and saw that a few days ago my "Relationship Status" changed. This is the first time since my engagement to M ended, that said status has changed.

I met one of the kindest and genuine men, back in Jan. when I wasn't even looking, us meeting was by chance. He is an elementary school teacher and has a lot of the same interests I do. He is a true southern boy man; Big truck (!) and all.  He possesses all (and more) of the traits I spoke of here in my "list".

Since Jan. we have been strictly friends, we spent a lot of time hanging out and getting to know each other. I had feelings for someone else when I met "The Teacher" (TT for short), and he knew that, but this person did not share the same feelings I had, relaying this message to me in black & white via email. Ouch. Oh well it was no big deal, I mean yah I was upset stunned, but I knew previously, that he had a lot of personal issues that needed to be dealt with.

TT and I continued to hang out, as friends, he would tell me how much he liked me and that he wanted to be more than friends, a couple, exclusive.

He went to church with me, dinner at my moms, to the park with E and I, came over and watched TV with me, tried, against my will to help me around the house, we did a lot of things that most would consider dating but since there were no strings attached, I felt that if I decided that I wasn't ready, no one got hurt and we could still be friends.

I had a hang-up but couldn't put my finger on what was bothering me.

One night a few weeks ago when I was in the shower (where I do my best thinking), it hit me. I was worried that he would wake-up one day and not want to be with someone who had a kid. Who had been there and done that. I wanted to  make sure his parents were "ok" with my past and my child. I am all for family and didn't want to cause problems.

I didn't want to get my heart or E's broken, again. I am a grown woman and I can deal with, as crappy as it is, heartbreak. E on the other hand is just a child and SHOULD NOT have to deal with heartbreak.

He was out-of-town, with some of his friends, when I came to my conclusion, so I called him and I told him what was up. I told him not to say anything but to think about it while he was gone and we would talk when he got home.

He got back a few days later and we discussed my feelings. I felt like even though we weren't dating, that we were in the "honeymoon" stage; That all was rainbows and unicorns. I didn't want, that when that stage passed, for him to no longer be interested in a mom, like previously mentioned.

He assured that "honeymoon" stage or not that he cared for me and he absolutely loved E (I mean she's amazing, how could anyone NOT love her?!)

After hearing his thoughts and feelings, I still wanted to think about it before I made my decision. I liked him and he is sweet and kind and genuine. He's a good man, who when he looks at me and I can see how much he cares.

But I wanted to be sure.

A few days later, after talking to my mom and gran, I decided that I needed to trust again and why not trust him and take a leap of faith. I mean we had been strictly friends for roughly 2 months and I knew what a great guy he was and the thought of him not being in my life was not an option.

So I waited for about a week before making it FB official b/c you know it's not true unless its on FB. Haha.

This is the first time since M, that I have been going to bed happy and waking up happy. I had moments here and there, after M, but those were fleeting moments. This one seems to be a continuous feeling and I like it. A lot.

I have a feeling you will be hearing about TT more in blogs to come.

On an UNRELATED note:

5 days until my girl turns 3!
3 days until her birthday party!


I am so excited to have all the people that E and I love, that love her, in one place to celebrate her life. It is going to be a beautiful day.

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Keep up in between posts, I Tweet , A lot.

xo

-Kandid Kelli

"Project Runway"

Hayley, over @ Blue Eyed Blonde loved the show and would talk about it. I had never watched it. I didn't even watch the season premier of the season on Lifetime. I told myself that "I didn't need another show I watched enough already"

One night I was watching a movie on lifetime and it ended at 11. I wasn't tired so I decided to leave the TV on, guess what was on after? The season premiere of Project Runway season 6. I watched it. I got sucked in. I GOT ADDICTED.

Plus Tim Gunn Rocks my world.

While visiting Hayls in jacksonville one weekend, Bravo was doing a PRW marathon of season 5, the season Christian won. I watched that too. LOVED it.

**Spoiler ALERT** (if you haven't seen the Season Finale of season 6)

Right off the bat I loved Carrol Hannah. I wanted her to win. I love how girly her style was; I think it's b/c I am pretty girly, or try to be.

I also liked how she NEVER started drama on the show. She seemed so real as well & she was just so nice to everyone.

When she didn't win I was so mad I declared on Twitter... FB & Myspace that I would NEVER EVER EVER watch PRW again! and I won't watch next season. I am still angry. Irina was 1) A Horrible bitch 2) Not a good designer 3) A Bitch

Last night I was bored and was surfing the web and in doing so CH tweeted (yes I follow her (don't judge me!) and it had a link to her Etsy store !!! Which had a link to her Website. Which Linked to her blog .

Basically I was all up in CHs biznaz last night. Yah Im a huge dork. But I really like her designs. I also decided that Its between her and one other designer for my wedding dress!! Yay. Now M just needs to ask. But I think every girl picks out her dress before she has a groom? yes?

** Did you watch Project Runway? Who was your favorite contestant? **

Thx for sticking with me [us]... the journey REALLY has just begun.

-Kelli-Sue

"Im on twitter!" ... Are you following me yet?

"Fashionably Late"

I realize its Oct. 6 which means for the past 6 days its been Breast Cancer Awareness month. Everyone and their mother has changed their FB picture to this one:



or something similar.

The reason I haven't written about this significant month yet is b/c I can't seem to find the right words.

My aunt has been in remission for 12 or 13 yrs now- Thank the Lord... she was very lucky they caught it so early. Ms mom has been in remission for 2 maybe 3 yrs now, she too was one of the lucky ones.

But not every woman is as lucky as these two woman in my life. Like, A close family friend, who died at the young age of 31 b/c she thought it was just a clogged milk duct... she had just stopped breast feeding her 6 month old. By the time they caught it she was stage 4 and it had spread to her lympnodes. She left behind a loving husband, a 1 yr old, a 3 yr old and a 6 yr old. So sad. That was 5 years ago- Today.

The National Cancer Institute, a component of the National Institutes of Health, estimates that, based on current rates, 12.7 percent of women born today will be diagnosed with breast cancer at some time in their lives<<< That Statistic is scary.

But you know what is even scarier? MORE women die from Heart disease then Breast Cancer every year. February is National Heart Disease Awareness Month. It gets the shortest month & not nearly as much publicity. I am in NO way scoffing at Breast Cancer Awareness!!

Just try and remember to keep yourselves healthy ladies- Not just the boobies but your heart under those boobies too!

Do your self checks! If you feel or find any abnormalities call your GYNO ASAP!



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((I've see some bloggers do a Q&A; where readers submit questions and the blogger answers them))

Incase you FORGOT -or- missed IT ; I am giving away a [custom] piece of jewelry (check here for an idea) to the reader who comments the most throughout the month of Oct. I know that is a long time to run a "contest" but I hope since its custom that my readers will be more inclined to comment!!

The "contest" has started! Good luck & Happy Commenting! :)

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Thx for sticking with me [us]... the journey has just begun!

-Kelli-Sue

"Im on twitter!" ... Are you following me yet?