"30 Days of Me- Day 30"

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Day 30: Your favorite song

I dont have a favorite song. I go through phases & I have a fav. playlist on my iPod & thats ALL I will listen too. On Sundays on my way to church I HAVE to listen to the countdown. Its like a must, its also how I know about new[er] music. But mostly I listen to my iPod. Right now I have a bunch of 90's country on my fav playlist & thats how I like it. 

"30 Days of Me- Day 29"

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Day 29: In this past month, what have you learned 


I have learned who I am, aside from a mother to my daughter. I think somewhere in the last 2ish years I lost a little piece of myself. 
This 'challenge' got me thinking about more then just the topic for the day.
I am happy with who I am and who I am becoming. 
I am happy with the path I have chosen for E & I and I am going to continue down it. 


I hope you have enjoyed getting to know me a little better.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 28"

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Day 28: A picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then? 

This was taken on Halloween 2009. 

This was taken Monday the 27th. Greenbay's MNF debut... I have changed alot in a yr.

• Lets start with the obvious: 
• My hair is longer
• I am thinner
• I no longer have a little one year old. I have a BIG two year old.
• I am a year older.

• The less obvious:
• I have moved 3 times in the last year (to PA, back from PA & into my house)
• I am living on my own again. Thank God!
• I work PT 3 mornings/early afternoons a week... soon to be 2 PT jobs, the second is 5 mid-late afternoons a week. 
• No longer just a SAHM.
• I am in grad school, I was not last year. 
• I am in limbo, relationship wise. I was engaged & now I am not. 
• I am learning that to be happy, not everyone in my life will be happy, but I have to make myself (which includes E, Im happy so is she) happy first.
• Ive [kinda] turned into a gym junkie... I love going and strive for 5 days a week. Sometimes I only get 4 in but thats better than before.

I think that is about it. I am sure there are more but those are the biggies. Over all I am learning to be happy as me, then I will attack my relationship status. Him & I are working on our friendship, he was my bestfriend for 4 yrs prior to be my fiancee.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 27"

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Day 27: Why are you doing this 30 day challenge 


I am doing the challenge to "get to know me" again. I, the person, who is more than a mommy & more then someone's girlfriend/fiancee, have been lost lately. 


I was/am going through a rough time right now. 


This has been very helpful, I have slowly been finding myself. 


Kind of like a weird therapy. 


This has made me realize only I can live MY life & I have to live it for me (& E).

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 26"

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Day 26: What do you think about your friends

Im not sure what this means?
 But I like them, If I didn't THEY WOULDN'T BE MY FRIEND.


Everyone of my friends is unique & that is what I love about each and every one of them.
They are always there for me & I know NO MATTER WHAT happens in life they will always be there. I have the bestfriends ever. 


I may not have a whole lot of them, but I wouldn't trade the ones I have for anything. 

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 25"

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Day 25: What I would find in your bag

This is my current bag. I *LOVE* it. I got it 45% off at Kohls. I have been eyeing this bag forever and when it went on sale you better believe it was MINE! (its a deep purple... this pic sucks)

Here's a quick looksie inside... from the top.

Hands free for my iPhone

Checkbook & receipts/business cards

Small Cosmetic bag with a few make-up staples

Old school iPod shuffle

Lotion

Mascara, Lipstick & lipgloss

Gum double pack

Watch

Keys

Lint roller, tide to-go mini, travel deodorant, travel mirror & travel hairspray

Wallet (purple one) & giftcard holder (gold/brown one)

a few pens

2 pairs of sunglasses

random loose change

Toys, bows, barrette, pacifier (All for E)

  

Usually my iPhone and camera are in there too but my phone is charging and I used my camera to take the pictures. Haha.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 24"

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Day 24: A letter to your parents

Since my parents have been divorced for as long as I can remember. I am going to go in a different direction and write one to each...

Mom,
It was just you and me for so long. Who knew that you were teaching me how to be a not only an amazing mom but how to do it with out help. You were always there, every dance recital, football & soccer game. Every school program. You worked full time. But I still had & attended slumber parties. You never showed how tired you must have been. I was a busy busy busy kid & you had a very demanding job, but you did not let that get in the way. You taught me how important family is. Then you married a wonderful man who, even though I was 17, has been like a dad to me. You two have supported every decision I have ever made, even if you didn't agree with them. You always found and still find ways to teach me life lessons, I will never be too old to learn from you & Tom. You two always made/make me feel loved, even when we were fighting. We fight, but its because we are so much alike. If I can do 1/2 as good a job raising my daughter I will be pleased. Thank you for always believing in me, thats the best gift ever. and Thank you for being wonderful loving and caring (& helpful) nana & papa! Thank you for all you have done & continue to do.
I love you.
-K

Dad,
You are quiet. You always have been, but you too were there for all my recitals and soccer games. You just never had a lot to say. I def. got moms personality. You made sure that I got my homework done & that I understood it. I always went to church on Wednesdays then came home and watched TV with you. That was OUR time, thats when we bonded. You never from what I can remember stood me up, you had me every other weekend & every wednesday and you stuck to it. You made sure I was included in family events, even if I was at moms you came and got me, b/c family is important. We always did something special on your weekends, something fun. I have very fond childhood memories from my time with you. Thank you for not being a deadbeat like so many of my friends fathers are/were. I am just sorry that as I got older, around the time I could drive, our relationship was not as close anymore. But you still never missed a game or recital. You have not always liked the decisions I have made & I know that but  you have tried to be supportive. As I get older and I mature I hope that I make few mistakes and less decisions you frown upon. I hope one day we can work on becoming closer again. Thank you for being such a wonderful "peepaw". Thank you for all you have done.
I love you.
-K

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 23"

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Day 23: Something you crave for a lot 

Oh wow. I crave adult interaction. I crave cuddles with a good man. I crave Froyo. 

I crave pure happiness. 

Lame? Probably.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 22"

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Day 22: What makes you different from everyone else 

Honestly, IDK. 

I have friends who are single moms, who are sahm, who work & go to school.

I am different but I don't know why... 

YOU TELL ME.

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"30 Days of Me- Day 21"

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Day 21: A picture of something that makes you happy 

I love watching E play. This girl loves being outside. We spend a good portion of our day outdoors. I think thats why she sleeps so well (2-3 hr nap) and 12-13 hrs at night. She is fearless & it terrifies me but I gotta let her spread her wings!

Taking a short break after falling down and skinning her knee. We don't have any outdoor furniture, yet. Gotta get stuff in phases. So the cooler worked as her chair. 

She makes me so immensely happy. Words don't even do it justice. I can be having a bad day or be down (I have been lately) & she smiles & says "I love you mama" or "You the best mama ever" or a simple hug from her and my day is made. I honestly don't know what I would do without her. 

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 20"

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Day 20: Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future

I don't have a certain person in mind. But I know the qualities I am looking for. 

I am 24 with 1 divorce under my belt. Its embarrassing. So when/if I get married again, It is a dream of mine, I want it to be right no question about it. I will not go through another divorce & E will be older and I don't want her to expierence that, she was a newborn when I got divorced the first time.

Seeing as I have been through the "ringer" if you will I know what I do and do not want. I don't need to make a list on here as long as I know in my head & heart what qualities I am looking for. 

The most important to me is I want a Family Man.

Heres a snap shot:

Craig Campbell "Family Man"

I've been working as a temp

At the local factory

I hope they hire me on full time

I've got shoes to buy

and a mouth to feed.

I drive a buy here, pay here truck

It ain't new, but it is for me

It ain't much but it fires right up

and get me from A to B

What puts the dirt underneath my nails

What keeps the calluses on my hands

Family man

They're a world my world revolves around

My sacred piece of solid ground

The flesh and bone that gives me strength to stand

They are a fire in my driving on

The drive behind my coming home

The living, breathing, reason that I am

A family man

There's dirty shirts to wash

Dishes in the sink to do

And there's how many times

Does 17 go into 52

There's bedtime prayers to pray

Sleep tights and I love you's

And then there's a pair of eyes

I get to lose myself into

What keeps me keeping the faith

What makes me believe I can

Family man

They're a world my world revolves around

My sacred piece of solid ground

The flesh and bone that gives me strength to stand

They are a fire in my driving on

The drive behind my coming home

The living, breathing, reason that I am

A family man

There's a fire in my driving on

The drive behind my coming home

The living, breathing, reason that I am

A family man

A family man

I know its just a song but he does a good job capturing what I feel is a real man. I could just be the "place" I am at right now in my life but I love this song and the meaning behind it.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 19"

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Day 19: Nicknames you have and why you have them 

• Kelli-Sue: I got this in college b/c its a cute southern name & I am cute and southern. Kelli is my first name... sue just fits nicely.
• KS: Shorten version of above.
• KelBel: Only a FEW ppl call me this. It started in MIDDLE SCHOOL I do believe.
• Kel- Shortened version of my name.
• Mama, Ma, Mommy, Mom: E alternates between all these.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 18"

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Day 18: Plans/dreams/goals you have 

• Well I don't have any plans, plans usually fall apart and then you end up feeling defeated. So I don't plan things anymore. Esp. my life. God has a plan for me & his plan is so much better than ANYTHING I could ever come up with.
•  I have a goal to FINISH my Masters Degree with no more interruptions [I had a small break this summer].

I dream of finding that perfect (in my eyes) man and falling in love and getting married [again]. When that happens, who knows when this will be, I plan on making him feel like the luckiest man alive. He will not only get 110% of me but he will be treated as if there are no other men alive. 

I know I will find "him". Maybe thats why I keep blogging about it to remind me to keep on keeping on. Sry If I get repetitive.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 17"

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Day 17: Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why 

This may sound silly, but I would want to switch lives with someone who is HAPPILY married with a handful of children. I believe I was born to be a wife & mother. I've got the mother part but I am lacking the husband part. I would love to have a [full] family to cook for every night & I already love watching E playing but I would love to watch a whole handful of children, running & playing. Just being kids. I would love to have a family and a husband to take care of; while having the loving caring support of my husband, where as I am caring for E alone with no support. I would also love to have that husband to talk to after the kids go to bed. Just to relax with, maybe have a glass of wine while talking about our days. Someone to cuddle with in bed. Like I said this "person", I don't have anyone person in mind, there are plenty of happily married women out there, needs to have the type of marriage I am striving for & will one day find. 

I know I will find my "Family Man" one day when I least expect it.

So I digressed on that one but I am sure you all get the picture!

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 15 & 16"

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Day 15: Put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play 

1. Tell Me I Was Dreaming- Travis Tritt
2. Shake Some Action- Cracker
3. Goodbye Earl- Dixie Chicks (yuck!)
4. Clear Blue Sky- King George
5. Falling Into You- Whiskey  Falls
6. Mirror, Mirror- Def Leopard
7. The Truth- Jason Aldean
8. Just Be Your Tear- Tim McGraw
9. Blacktop Road- The Lost Trailers
10. That's Cool- Blue County

*When I said I had [mostly] only Country on my iPod, I wasn't kidding. I like a little bit of everything but, barely. I am a country girl, stuck in the city. I was raised by country folk, Not my mom, yah right! No my gran is from SC & did a lot of raising me! Yeehaw baby.

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Day 16: Another picture of yourself 

Last month I took a weekend trip (before I moved) to see Hayls, for her birthday. We had fun. We also took E to "Pump It UP!" a place that has a bunch of jump houses, similar to Monkey Joes. Anyways we went during toddler time or whatever and there were hulahoops and toys everywhere, along with thoe jump houses & slides. This is me (Kandid of course) getting my hulahoop on! [photo Credit]

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"30 Days of Me- Day 13 & 14"

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day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently 

The main reason I didn't do this yesterday is b/c I was having a hard time figuring out who to write to. No one has hurt me recently. I have had people hurt me in the past & I thought of writing to them and I started a few drafts. None of them sounded right, b.c frankly I have not only gotten over that hurt but I have moved past it. I think the experiences I had in college, where the "big hurt" occurred, help make me a better more understanding person. I also realize not to trust just anyone, to quickly. So I guess it hardened me a little to (so sad). 

Anyways, M & I are having a lot of problems & we have both hurt each other so it didn't seem fitting to write him a letter. I frankly don't know what is going to happen with us. We have alot of personal/ relationship work to do. 

So I guess I don't have a letter. Sorry I know its lame, but its honest & that's what blogging is about to me. Honesty, to oneself & my readers (as few as they maybe while I am private).

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day 14- a picture of you and your family 

This was taken Thanksgiving 2007. This is my stepdads family. Every other year we go to VA for the holiday. I was pregnant with Emmy & it was the last time I went, b.c in 09 I didnt want to take my just over a year old kiddo to VA to be in a house w.5 other families & no quiet place to sleep. I hope to go next year though!

my dads side of the family- Taken in July of 2008, when my cousin came home on leave. As you can see theres a blurry spot... thats my exhusband. I blurred him b/c obviously hes not part of the family anymore. This is the ONLY pic we have of the WHOLE family.

This one is controversial, b/c like I said above: M & I are having problems & are on a "break" right now. 

But he made up a big part of my family for over 2 yrs. This blog is nothing but honest; I don't know what is going to happen with us, but I do love him & how much he loves my daughter. This was the last picture we had taken together, it was in June 2010.

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-Kandid Kelli

"30 Days of Me- Day 12"

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Day 12: How you found out about blogger and why you have one 

I found out about blogger from my friend Erin. She used to tell me "how cool" it was. I would read hers & Tia's- Clever Girl Goes Blog (the first blog I read of a person I didn't know & b/c I was on bedrest I read all the way to her first post). I started my blog, As a way to keep everyone, friends & family updated on my little E (I was pregnant & had just moved back home b/c my "marriage had gone south). There were some issues and it got old making the same phone call 8-10 time. So I started the blog.

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"30 Days of Me- Day 11"

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Day 11: Another picture of you and your friends 

This is the LAST pic I have of the 3 of us. Dan is living the life in HAWAII!!!

Dan, Me at about 35wks & Hayls

Ash, Mal, Me & Emmy; before Toy Story 3 (taken by Hayls)

The last pic I have of the 3 of us... 2008! DANG. Next time im in town we need to FIX this.

 Hayls, Me & Erin

At lunch for Hayls Birthday last yr. with some guys from JCJD.

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"30 Days of Me- Day 10"

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Day 10: Songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad 

I listen to country. Always. 

I used to listen to rock when I was mad but I stick to country now.

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"30 Days of Me- Day 9"

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Day 9: Something you're proud of in the past few days 

• This house & FINALLY after 2yrs being on my own again. (I can't believe I remember how to run a household. The last time I ran one, I was married (gag) & pregnant. What a change.
• I am also working PT/3days a week (hopefully I will get another PT job soon) & getting my Masters. 

I guess you could say I am starting to get a grasp on this whole single mom thing, as M hasn't been around since June.

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-Kandid Kelli